The other night Sebastian and I had a rare middle of the night snuggle. Laying there snuggled under the blanket on the couch together with him, listening to his little heart beating I started reflecting back on the year that has been.
As I sit here writing this with only four more sleeps remaining until Sebastian is ‘officially’ a toddler (I’ll be honest with you in my eyes he will be a baby / my baby for a while yet), now more than ever seems like the perfect occasion to be doing this – reflecting.
His first birthday has inched closer and closer and so too has the sea of blue and yellow party supplies and decorations, slowly consuming our house. With this more time of late has been spent staring at his button nose and reflecting about the first few weeks in particular at home as a family. You know the ones, when you first get your little one home and wonder where the instruction booklet is… yip, those ones!
Those early days, thanks to Steve and my Mum were beautiful. All I had to concentrate on was my baby boy, they took care of the rest. I was able to watch him sleep, stare at cute button nose and start dreaming of all the things his future would hold for him. He was an adorable cuddly koala and every bit like his Daddy (not that his Daddy is a koala). I didn’t want to let him out of my sight and wanted him as close as I possible. I wanted to smell that gorgeous new baby smell every chance I got.
My darling Steve was fabulous! That’s all, just fabulous. He was involved right from the beginning – changing nappies, dressing, winding and loving our little guy. It was such a lovely moment watching him willingly change Sebastian’s nappy when we got home that first afternoon. My heart just leapt.
My Mum was instrumental in those first few weeks – helping us out and keeping our house running; leaving Steve, Sebastian and I to bond, to grow and to figure out this gig called parenting. She was of course there to give much needed advice (she was our missing instruction booklet) and enjoy baby snuggles too.
I love that my life and world changed the moment I saw him and it never ceases to amaze me the blind and unconditional love that I feel towards him. My love for Steve, his Daddy has also grown throughout the last year and we are now closer then ever before.
As clichéd as it is to say the last year has gone so fast and whilst it feels like yesterday we were leaving Birthcare a family of now three it also feels like Sebastian has always been apart of our lives. I wouldn’t want to change it for the world. I have loved everything about the last year – ok not everything: I haven’t particularly enjoyed the lack of sleep at times, his arrival to the world was not easiest and the super sore nipples from feeding were not exactly highlights (they are all stories for another time) but they have shaped in part who I am today and the Mum that I am, so I feel lucky to have had those experiences.
I have however LOVED, LOVED, LOVED being a Mum ~ Sebastian’s Mum!
This last year has been beautiful little man and for that I thank you.